Lala!!

Waaaaahhhh!! Update! Well, I'm slowly udating everything, I just put some new pictures on my photo blog, so that's good. Well, not too terribly much has been going on these days, school, Ryan, church, choir, can't think of much more else. We just greeted at 7 last Sunday, if you didn't come see me, shame on you!! You better come next time! :) Anyways, I'm sorry I don't have much else to post about. Uhm, I've felt like I'm in a dream the past like, month though. Actually, I finally figured out today what it is... It feels like I'm living in a memory because when I dwell on memories, I have the same feelings and dozed-like feeling as when I'm carrying out daily actions. Well, it's kind of scary because I feel like I'll feel like this forever, I hope it fades away soon. Well, that's about all for now.

Oh man, guys, I don't want my first post back in a while to be negative, but it's happened, and I feel the need to write about it. Last night I had a mathematically induced headache, went to bed, it was fine. I woke up around 5:45 this morning and I had the worst headache I've had since I was little. It was so bad, so I got up and told Mom, she gave me tylenol, I tried to go back to sleep, it still hurt reallllly bad, so I went and let the hot water in the shower run over me for awhile, I got out of the shower, Mom told me I should eat something because I tend to get headaches when I don't eat. Well, just as I got crackers out of the pantry, I realized this was just enough to turn my stomach. I up-chucked, yes, it was gross. Did you all need to know that? Definitely!! Well, then Mom got me some toast and tea, and I slept on the recliner in the family room because I couldn't lie down, it hurt worse. That's so eventful. So now I deem mathematics a detriment to society as well as my well-being and personal health. Can I get an "Amen!" or two? I'm sure I can... :)

In other news, we got some new songs in choir that you can all be listening out for, they're pretty cool, I didn't sing them Thursday at practice because I had a headache then too, but I listened to them so I would know what I was supposed to be singing. They converge two worship songs that lyrically collide beautifully. They sound fun, easier to sing than some of the other stuff, so I'm actually looking forward to that quite a bit. I can't wait to master them.

Thursday night Bible study, Steve gave a superior lesson, it was extremely good. He just stated many truths, and got my mind working. Worship was mainly themed on being hungry for God. The lesson was about having that hunger for God and how it might be satiated. Basically it is about feeling some sort of a void, and you have to attempt to fill that void, keep it from being or becoming a void and keeping it at a healthy hunger. He made the point that sometimes you walk into a room with hundreds of people around you, and you still feel alone but you have to realize that you are never alone, your best friend is always there with you. He hit on a bunch of awesome things, and I think the most awesome thing about it was that he said this: He really didn't have the one final answer as to how to fix your feelings of a void or anything like that. Realizing that there isn't one direct answer for everything is an awesome ability, and for him to tell us that, even admit it, is awesome. We all want there to be one easy answer, but if everything had one easy answer, there'd be no need for faith or anything. Steve also commanded respect, and I admire him for that. Our group can get rather rambunctious and in some senses disrespectful, but he laid it out, still let everyone feel at ease, but told us what he required of us. He did an excellent job, and while I am sad to see him and Maggie stepping down from their position, I am glad I have had my brother as a teacher this long, and still feel even more blessed that I have the comfort of still being able to talk to him about things. It's been good experiencing him as a teacher, something I probably never would have viewed him as without the position in which God placed him for so long. So as far him leaving this ministry, it was an extreme blessing for as long as it lasted, and it still is. Thanks, Steve, for being such an awesome and dedicated teacher as long as you have been. Even with your busy schedule, you always attempted to teach us, and managed to show to Bible study just for us. I love ya!!

Ah the suffering! I have one of the worst colds I have had in a looong time. I have dizziness, headache, body aches, stuffy head, congestion, exhaustion sneezing, and weariness. This is the same cold Ryan has, he pawned it off on me, unfortunately he wasn't able to get rid of it, he just spread it. ;) Well, it started yesterday when Ryan and I were hanging out around town at In-n-Out and Best Buy, but it wasn't that bad. Then when we got home and Ryan and Casey were playing X-box, I was hit with exhaustion. I was really tired, so I slept with my head on Ryan while he and Casey played Kingdom under Fire and uhm, some others I can't think of right now, oh yeah, foggy head too, as a symptom. Well, I slept for let's say an hour, then I started to get a sore throat. Then I went to sleep at around 1:40 and woke up at about 9:00. My Spanish teacher called me to inform me that he definitely made a mistake in giving me an F on participation on my final progress report. On my official report card, my grade will be correct. Well, then I didn't feel well, but I got up, brushed my teeth, got water, and took medicine, then went back to sleep after a couple of minutes of loitering in my kitchen. Then I went and slept 'til about 11 when I called Ryan, I'd woken up a couple of minutes prior and then decided to call him. He'd just woken up as well. Well, then Ryan motivated me to get something to eat because he was making the difficult trek himself. I got some soup, then I went and slept yet again until about 1:30. I was still so weary, that I just decided rather than getting up, I'd just go back to sleep. In all the times I've gotten up, I've been taking Vitamin C as well. The kind I have are impossibly hard to take. Well, I woke up a few minutes ago, about 3:30, took more medicine, and then decided to get online. I think I'm going to go study some history. That's also something I've been doing to help lull me to sleep, recite the Gettysburg Address and attempt to memorize the whole lot of it. It goes slow, but at least it goes. Maybe I'll go do some stuff, but I'm still so tired, you'd think 14 hours of sleep would provide with some support system or reserves of energy or something. I don't know. I hope that you all continue to feel well and are not plagued by this horror of a cold. And don't worry too much about me, the only time I suffer is when I'm awake, and I've been sleeping most the day. My headache isn't too terribly bad right now either. Yay. Just stay away from me!! :)

I'm about to leave for camp. I'm so nervous, excited, scared, amped up... It should be fun. Pray for me.

Here is a list of my movie ticket collection, movies I've seen.
Toy Story 2 - January 29, 2000
Me, Myself, and Irene - June 23, 2000
How the Grinch Stole Christmas - November 18, 2000
Miss Congeniality - January 3, 2001
The Princess Diaries - August 11, 2001
A Walk to Rememember - February 17, 2002
Clockstoppers - April 27, 2002
The Rookie - April 28, 2002
Serving Sara - September 14, 2002
Sweet home Alabama - November 3, 2002
Monsters Inc. - November 9, 2002
What A Girl Wants - April 12, 2003
The Lizzie McGuire Movie - April 24, 2003
Bringing Down the House - April 26, 2003
Finding Nemo - August 10, 2003
Mona Lisa Smile - December 28, 2003
50 First Dates - February 13, 2004
The Passion of the Christ - March 2, 2004
The Alamo - April 9, 2004
Mean Girls - May 15, 2004
I, Robot - August 6, 2004
The Princess Diaries 2 - August 14, 2004
The Forgotten - October 2, 2004
Taxi - October 8, 2004
The Incredibles - November 10, 2004
Lemony Snicket's A Series of Unfortunate Events - December 23, 2004

I'm listening to Showbread right now, the new cd that my wonderful Ryan gave me, and Ryan is on his way over. I just mindlessly played The Sims 2 for about 10 minutes. The game doesn't hold the same attraction it did before. Real life is more fun. :) Well, I will analyze the cd, what all I've heard of it thus far. I like how they combine the rock screams with singing. They found the perfect medium. Rare band, this type. I greatly enjoy it. I like how they have the rock scream syncronized with the singing. It sounds cool. Well, I returned to the prison that is my schooling once again today. Math bites major butt. That's alright, once I'm out of school, I'll pretend that I don't need it just to prove myself right. Well, this is all. I'm leaving now. Sorry, short and cruddy update, but operative word? Update.